An answer to prayer

This week has been a tough one. After doing so well for a couple of weeks DJ has been very difficult. At night he has been sleeping only for very short periods of time, and his sleep has been punctuated by cries, and then he goes back to sleep. At night lately he has been wanting to eat every hour and a half to two hours instead of three to four and occasionally five hours like he had been doing. I used to be able to wake up in the night, feed him really quickly and then go right back to sleep, so I would get a good eight hours of sleep. Now I feed him, he fights me all the way, he falls back asleep while I'm feeding him, I can't get him to eat a good amount, and when I put him back down he wakes up instantly screaming again. Even when he has gotten enough to eat he will wake up every time I put him down. I used to be able to lay him down for 15 or 20 minutes and he would talk to himself and look around and once he even rolled over. Now I put him down and he'll be okay on the floor for five minutes tops usually less. He has been crying more and I have gotten no sleep, and no time to eat or shower and do homework.

I'm only taking one class so you'd think it wouldn't be hard to keep up on my assignments and study for tests, but I am drowning in this class. I had a test today which I'm sure I failed. I was too tired to focus at all, and my head was pounding. I didn't get a chance to study very much so I was already doomed. I only filled out half of the answers, most of which were guesses, I left the rest blank, turned in my test and went home early where I was hoping to get a nap... but it was not to be. So I've seriously been considering dropping the class because I've been having doubts about whether or not I'll be able to pass it. So, to sum it all up I'm tired, I'm hungry, I'm failing my class, I'm extremely stressed and extremely discouraged.

This morning I just broke down. DJ was crying and I was crying and I just didn't know what to do. I began praying... or rather I continued praying because I had been praying a lot this past week. I was begging for comfort and to know what to do to help DJ feel better and for help in some form or another. All day I have repeated that prayer, I went to class and failed my test and came home and prayed some more.

Tonight my visiting teachers came over. They were mostly just introducing themselves and asking me how I was doing, they didn't actually give me any sort of a message or anything. And I told them how stressed I was and how little sleep I had been getting. And then they eagerly volunteered to take him off my hands for a few hours every evening. The one has four children, the youngest one is eight, and she has been missing having a baby around and was only too thrilled to take him home with her. The other one said that she could come over on Tuesdays and Thursdays and watch him here for me. So now I'm going to have my evenings available to me to take a nap or to study and do homework, or to run errands (I still haven't sent Kristy's Christmas present, I just haven't had the time) or to help Heidi with Dishes and housework (I really haven't been pulling my weight around here.)

So basically I got a very straightforward answer to my prayer. Heavenly Father is looking out for me. He knows what I need and he sends help. I have a Relief Society president who assigned visiting teachers to me who have the time and the willingness to do just what I need most. These visiting teachers didn't wait until the end of the month to come and visit, they came on the day that I needed them most. It is very comforting to know that I am being watched over and looked after. So, on my first evening off, after a short nap I have chosen to write on this blog and tell my family about the great blessings that I have been given, I thought it was important to do.