Waiting

I'd say what is going on in my life right now, but to be perfectly honest NOTHING is going on in my life. I guess that really is my fault and I really ought to be doing something to make my life feel more eventful. I should be working on some project, or doing something to improve myself. But I'm not. I feel like my while life is on hold, and that my entire point of existing right now is just to wait. I am waiting for Dean to come home. I am waiting for my baby to be born. I am waiting to start school again. I am waiting for life to continue. I feel like someone pushed a big pause button and stopped my life, so now I am just waiting. I really need to just pull myself out of this and get on with my life. This really isn't good for me, and if I'm not careful it could lead to depression or some other selfish disease like that. At least some of my waiting isn't going to go on for too much longer. My baby is due in 20 days, but due dates mean so little. I have an ultrasound next week, at which they will decide whether or not they should induce early. I guess they're worried that my baby is small, and he may not be growing well in his present conditions. After he is born then they need to monitor his heart. He has one valve that could develop a problem after he's born. He's doing alright for now, and they say that if he does end up having a problem with that valve then they'll be able to fix it without too much trouble. Their bigger concern right now is just his size. Not his size so much as the rate that he's growing at. At my first ultrasound he was measuring in the 48th percentile. At subsequent ultrasounds (I've had five now) that percentile has gone from 48 to 36 then to 21 and at the last one it was 16. So they have me going in twice a week to monitor his heart rate, and fluid levels and such. Everything seems to be fine, no one seems to be all that worried about anything, they just want to take precautions just in case. They all seem to be making a much bigger deal of all of this than necessary, but I guess they know best, so I go along with it. I am looking forward to having Dean home for two weeks after the baby is born, but the closer it gets, the shorter two weeks seems to be. I guess I'll deal with that when the time comes.

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