Great news! ...mostly...
Dean won't be deploying after all! Hooray! This means he won't be gone when baby#4 arrives. He won't miss out on the first year of his/her life. He won't have to leave me with four small children all by myself! Hooray!
Of course, nothing about this is certain. For some reason he is still on the list to go to the month long training in August. We suspect so that it's either a mistake, or they want him to teach someone else how to do his job, since he won't be going. There is also the chance that they will change their minds and decide that they want him to come after all. And there is always always the possibility that things will escalate, or war will break out elsewhere and he will be sent out with very little notice at any time.
Dean is pretty upset that he won't be going, mostly because he was supposed to be getting a battlefield promotion, that would put him into a leadership position, that he was really really looking forward to doing. They can't just give him the promotion because it hasn't been long enough since his last promotion, and he technically won't be eligible to receive that promotion for more than a year. I guess things are different when he is down range. Now though, that position that he was supposed to fill has been listed as vacant, and people from other units have been invited to apply. Dean is pretty disappointed there.
Then there is the trouble with money. When he is deployed we would be making quite a bit more money than he normally makes. We were planning on getting our car payed off and all of our other debts while he was gone, but now those will just have to wait a little longer. We were also planning a Disneyland trip for after he got back that now we'll probably not be able to go. We were hoping to be able to save up enough money to get new kitchen cupboards and counter tops, but that will have to wait.
For the past couple of months Dean has been taking a break from his sheriff deputy job to do military funeral honors. This was supposed to be a six month job, and then he was going to go back to working at the jail like he was before. After just a couple of months though, he has decided that he doesn't really want to go back, mostly because of the difference in pay. So now that he isn't deploying, he is suddenly applying for other jobs again. He is applying at the various trona mines out here. He is applying to be a military recruiter. He's also trying to get the six month contract that he is currently doing extended for another year. If he isn't able to do any of those though, his deputy job is still on hold for him, and he will always have that to go back to.
Those are all of the cons. They are outweighed pretty heavily by the fact that he is just not going to be gone! Between 9 months in Afghanistan, 3 months in Texas, and 1 month in California, and then between 1 week and 5 weeks in Cheyenne after he got back, he would have been gone for over a year. I am super happy that he won't be going. At the same time though, I'm having a hard time wrapping my brain around it. I hate uncertainty. I hate not knowing what is going to happen, and I thought we had the plan pretty well set for the next year and a half. I think I'm also afraid to accept it completely because I'm afraid they're going to change their mind. I know I should just be ecstatic that he's not going, but for some reason I keep dwelling more on those cons. I think probably because I had already accepted the fact that he would be going, and I had focused so much on all of the reasons that it was good that he was going and just blocked out all of the reasons that I didn't want him to go. Now that he's not going, it's hard to reverse that. I'm sure once this baby is born, I will have no trouble at all be glad that he is here with me, and not on the other side of the world. Today I am just counting my blessings.
Of course, nothing about this is certain. For some reason he is still on the list to go to the month long training in August. We suspect so that it's either a mistake, or they want him to teach someone else how to do his job, since he won't be going. There is also the chance that they will change their minds and decide that they want him to come after all. And there is always always the possibility that things will escalate, or war will break out elsewhere and he will be sent out with very little notice at any time.
Dean is pretty upset that he won't be going, mostly because he was supposed to be getting a battlefield promotion, that would put him into a leadership position, that he was really really looking forward to doing. They can't just give him the promotion because it hasn't been long enough since his last promotion, and he technically won't be eligible to receive that promotion for more than a year. I guess things are different when he is down range. Now though, that position that he was supposed to fill has been listed as vacant, and people from other units have been invited to apply. Dean is pretty disappointed there.
Then there is the trouble with money. When he is deployed we would be making quite a bit more money than he normally makes. We were planning on getting our car payed off and all of our other debts while he was gone, but now those will just have to wait a little longer. We were also planning a Disneyland trip for after he got back that now we'll probably not be able to go. We were hoping to be able to save up enough money to get new kitchen cupboards and counter tops, but that will have to wait.
For the past couple of months Dean has been taking a break from his sheriff deputy job to do military funeral honors. This was supposed to be a six month job, and then he was going to go back to working at the jail like he was before. After just a couple of months though, he has decided that he doesn't really want to go back, mostly because of the difference in pay. So now that he isn't deploying, he is suddenly applying for other jobs again. He is applying at the various trona mines out here. He is applying to be a military recruiter. He's also trying to get the six month contract that he is currently doing extended for another year. If he isn't able to do any of those though, his deputy job is still on hold for him, and he will always have that to go back to.
Those are all of the cons. They are outweighed pretty heavily by the fact that he is just not going to be gone! Between 9 months in Afghanistan, 3 months in Texas, and 1 month in California, and then between 1 week and 5 weeks in Cheyenne after he got back, he would have been gone for over a year. I am super happy that he won't be going. At the same time though, I'm having a hard time wrapping my brain around it. I hate uncertainty. I hate not knowing what is going to happen, and I thought we had the plan pretty well set for the next year and a half. I think I'm also afraid to accept it completely because I'm afraid they're going to change their mind. I know I should just be ecstatic that he's not going, but for some reason I keep dwelling more on those cons. I think probably because I had already accepted the fact that he would be going, and I had focused so much on all of the reasons that it was good that he was going and just blocked out all of the reasons that I didn't want him to go. Now that he's not going, it's hard to reverse that. I'm sure once this baby is born, I will have no trouble at all be glad that he is here with me, and not on the other side of the world. Today I am just counting my blessings.
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