Life with a baby
I keep intending to write something because I enjoy writing for my
family, although I really don't have much to say. My life the past week
or so has been very... busy... while at the same time, I feel as if I
am doing nothing at all. I am rarely doing nothing though. I feel like I
am constantly changing diapers, or feeding him, or just holding him
and talking to him. The rare occasions when he sleeps for more than 15
minutes I sleep as well. I've been having a hard time getting much of
anything done. I haven't even showered for several days now just because
I don't want him to wake up and be screaming until I get out of the
shower and hear him. I did finally wash some laundry today. That has
been needing to get done for a while now. I've been planning on going to
the store for days now.
I just realized a bit ago that I probably don't have enough diapers to last through the night. I was given a bunch of diapers that are way too big for him, but they'll have to do until tomorrow. I never realized how many diapers one small kid can go through in one day. Last Thursday we bought diapers, I think there were 40 in there. They were gone by Monday morning. I've been using another package of slightly bigger diapers that I was given. I think there were 40 in that package too, but those are just about gone now. That's a lot of diapers. 80 diapers in less than a week.
I keep forgetting to eat. I guess I don't really forget, I'm just always too busy feeding him to bother feeding myself. I think I finally got around to eating breakfast around 11, I ate lunch close to 3, and I had dinner at 10. I didn't intend to put off eating, but he takes up a lot of time. If he's not eating, he needs a diaper change, and if he needs neither of those, then he's just crying for some unknown reason and I don't feel good just leaving him to take care of myself when he's like that. Sometimes he'll just be wide awake and happy, and when he's like that I would just rather hold him and talk to him.
Occasionally he'll sleep, and when he does I always have a dilemma of what to do during that time. I have so many things that need to be done. I am getting way behind in everything that I ought to be doing. I need to wash laundry, I need to clean up this basement that is a mess, I need to help out with dishes or meals so I don't feel like such a leech on Heather, I need to sleep, I need to shower, I need to write a blog... the list goes on and on. But in the short amount of time that he sleeps, I have a hard time getting everything done.
I'm learning. I'm sure I'll figure this out eventually, and hopefully he'll start sleeping a little better and a little longer from time to time. I should just learn to get things done even when he's not sleeping. Things were a lot easier when Dean was here. He could just take him while I got things done. So unless he needed to be fed, I could be doing other things, and I could know that he was in good hands and getting the good attention that he needs.
Even as I type he is waking up and beginning to cry. So I guess that means my time is up.
I just realized a bit ago that I probably don't have enough diapers to last through the night. I was given a bunch of diapers that are way too big for him, but they'll have to do until tomorrow. I never realized how many diapers one small kid can go through in one day. Last Thursday we bought diapers, I think there were 40 in there. They were gone by Monday morning. I've been using another package of slightly bigger diapers that I was given. I think there were 40 in that package too, but those are just about gone now. That's a lot of diapers. 80 diapers in less than a week.
I keep forgetting to eat. I guess I don't really forget, I'm just always too busy feeding him to bother feeding myself. I think I finally got around to eating breakfast around 11, I ate lunch close to 3, and I had dinner at 10. I didn't intend to put off eating, but he takes up a lot of time. If he's not eating, he needs a diaper change, and if he needs neither of those, then he's just crying for some unknown reason and I don't feel good just leaving him to take care of myself when he's like that. Sometimes he'll just be wide awake and happy, and when he's like that I would just rather hold him and talk to him.
Occasionally he'll sleep, and when he does I always have a dilemma of what to do during that time. I have so many things that need to be done. I am getting way behind in everything that I ought to be doing. I need to wash laundry, I need to clean up this basement that is a mess, I need to help out with dishes or meals so I don't feel like such a leech on Heather, I need to sleep, I need to shower, I need to write a blog... the list goes on and on. But in the short amount of time that he sleeps, I have a hard time getting everything done.
I'm learning. I'm sure I'll figure this out eventually, and hopefully he'll start sleeping a little better and a little longer from time to time. I should just learn to get things done even when he's not sleeping. Things were a lot easier when Dean was here. He could just take him while I got things done. So unless he needed to be fed, I could be doing other things, and I could know that he was in good hands and getting the good attention that he needs.
Even as I type he is waking up and beginning to cry. So I guess that means my time is up.
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