Being April

Well... I don't really have any good pictures of me pregnant. If I pose for them, or even if I know the picture is being taken, I just look dorky and I just can't bring myself to post them. Not that these pictures are any better, but I feel better about them for some reason. So I had another ultrasound today. They just wanted to see how big he is and see if he is growing enough in there. The idea I guess is that if he hadn't grown enough since my last ultrasound they were going to induce him early. Apparently he had a good growth spurt this month, as his percentile jumped from 16 at the end of September to 33 today. So they will not be inducing him. I am very happy that he is growing, and I am quite pleased that he is healthy, and doing well, but I can't help being slightly disappointed that he won't be making an early arrival. It would be nice to have it scheduled so he won't come at a surprise time, and it would be nice to have t...

I'd say what is going on in my life right now, but to be perfectly honest NOTHING is going on in my life. I guess that really is my fault and I really ought to be doing something to make my life feel more eventful. I should be working on some project, or doing something to improve myself. But I'm not. I feel like my while life is on hold, and that my entire point of existing right now is just to wait. I am waiting for Dean to come home. I am waiting for my baby to be born. I am waiting to start school again. I am waiting for life to continue. I feel like someone pushed a big pause button and stopped my life, so now I am just waiting. I really need to just pull myself out of this and get on with my life. This really isn't good for me, and if I'm not careful it could lead to depression or some other selfish disease like that. At least some of my waiting isn't going to go on for too much longer. My baby is due in 20 days, but due dates mean ...